BUSY BUSY

Well have been looking for a REAL job....on vacation...and working at Cato's and Weight Watchers!!! Still haven't found a teaching job...still looking...quite a bummer especially since I just completed 4 years of college to get a degree that I can't even find a job for now...still hoping and praying for something to come along!!! Went to Gatlinburg with BJ we rented a cabin up there and had an ABSOLUTE BLAST!!! What an amazing place and time we had!!! I MISS IT!!! Work at Cato's and Weight Watchers is still trudging along!!!

CHANGES and NEW THINGS to COME

Well I have had a couple of interviews with schools and waiting to hear back from them. Praying that they went well and that I will hear back. I also have an interview coming up June 11th with weight watchers!! This I am very excited about because it is something that is very near to my heart seeing that just this past december I hit my weight goal from doing weight watchers and am in a size four...a size I have NEVER seen before until now and NEVER though I would even starting weight watchers I was expecting an 8 maybe boy did I surprise myself...quite amazing really. With all this going on I get stressed and bogged down worrying as I wait to hear back and know which way my life will go next! I know it is all in God's hands and He is in control, but at the same time being human I still worry and wish I knew. It is hard to know that this could be the start of my career or that I may be waiting another year for it to come to me. I know either way, whatever happens it is in God's hands and what is meant to be will happen, but I am not much of a person who likes to wait!! SO keep me in your prayers. On the other hand on the 23rd and this month me and BJ will be together for a year and a half which floors me, because this is the longest relationship I have ever been in, I believe he is the one for me and hope he feels the same!! I know there are some out there that NEVER thought it would be possible for me to be "serious" about anyone and that I would always date someone for a few months and then break it off because of an uneasy feeling that I get!! BUT believe it or NOT I have made it and boy has it paid off!! And Honestly i think the reason none of those others worked or that I got that feeling is because it just simply was not meant to be!! Anyone that knows me knows that I have always said what is meant to be will happen!!! I am the luckiest girl alive and wow am I glad that waited it out because I have met the man of my dreams!!! It is hard for me to believe that me and BJ have been together this long...it feels like just yesterday we met and started dating!!! I have so much fun with him...from fishing...yes me fishing, I LOVE it it is so much fun...going new places we have never been, going hiking, going to see a movie, going to downtown greenville to walk around and spend the day together, and so much more!!! No matter what we are doing together is always fun...at least I think so!!! :-D Well I just wanted to bring an update...because I am trying to blog more!!!

Some People have some Real Nerve...or at least act like it

Some things really get to me...and anyone that truly knows me knows that I let things build up and before it makes me mad or gets to me, but some things get to me right off. And one of these things is when people who don't know someone starts to run their mouth about them, that is close to me or my family and putting their nose in places that it shouldn't be!!! And lately this has been happening...a lot more and more... mostly because of certain family things we have been having going on. So I guess that makes people think they have a right to put their noses in places where it doesn't belong or to even drag people into it that has absolutely nothing to do with it. I don't know how you can throw someone under the bus that you have talked to or taken more than 10 or 15 minutes to get to know them. I guess I was always taught graowing up if I didn't have something nice to say to keep my mouth close...not by any means saying that I always followed that but I at least know not to start running my mouth about someone who is innocent and has nothing to do with the situation needs to be left out of it. I just get really irratated about these kind of things. Some people just need to grow up and accept things how they really are. But I guess it is hard to accept things when you lie to yourself about them everyday...who wouldn't have a hard time dealing with things or putting things to rest when they know they were the one in the wrong. But don't bring someone else into the situation when they aren't the problem all that does is try to focus the problem on someone else because you know you are the problem or what caused it!!!!!

UPDATES

Well......writing again after a LONG time!!!....Been busy busy busy!!!.......New Orleans went GREAT....got refreshed and recharged!! It was exciting and glad that I had the opportunity to go!! We gutted houses cleaned them out it was amazing to me how after 2 years how much destruction was still there and the stuff that still needed to be done there. I am so glad that I decided to go and that I was given the opportunity to go......It helped me a lot and got me to the place where I need to be face to face with God again and back on track!!! Keep me in your prayers that I will stay where I need to be and keep my focus!! Benn through a lot lately but I know God is there by my side and with me at all times...just got to let him have control of it all and keep giving Him everything daily and stop trying to do it all on my own!!! Also keep Michael Mitchem's family and friends in your prayers he was a friend of my family and died Wednesday due to a car accident that happened on Saturday

SOOO ready for a break!!!

Man..I am so ready for a break...ready to get away from Boiling Springs and just everything altogether for a while!!! I leave for the Mission trip to New Orleans in 10 days!!!...and I am oh soo ready......ready to get back to that place I need to be with God and just to get away from everything here for a few days!!!...im just at that plave where im tired of dealing with stupid crap and just everything and im ready to get away from it all!!!...I just need to refocus my eyes back on what really matters and the ONLY thing that really matters in life and thats GOD!!!..so I am hoping that this Mission trip will give me back that fire and just restore my joy and restor me because I need to be restored!!!

CONFUSED

Ever felt like you just don't know what to do anymore.......I know God has my life and I shouldn't worry but I do being the human I am I worry WAY to much!! I get so caught up in day to day life and I just sit and think about things that I shouldn't even be concerned with because its all in God's hands!! I am so confused right now and don't really know where to turn.......the more I think the more I wonder you know why am I going through all of this I get crushed so easily but the devil can't take my joy away I know that its all a part of God's big plan I am just seeing what is in front of me right now and I don't see the whole big picture like He does and how everything works out..and He knows what is best for me and He won't put on me more than I can handle He knows my limits and I am going through these trials and hard times to make me stronger I know this but it is so hard at times I know I can't do it alone I have to have Him by my side and continuously giving it to Him and tell Him here God take it please!! And sometimes I just kick myself in the tail because I am so prideful and just take it all on and put my happy face on and deal with it all by myself because I'm "strong" and that's what I do!!! Well I have gotten to that place where I can't do it by myself anymore I am handing it to God I'm not dealing with it anymore and I'm going to try my hardest not to fret over the little things anymore just let Him have it after all He knows what is best anyways so I find myself yet again asking myself why I didn't just do that in the 1st place!!! I am so glad He is always there for me and never leaves me because boy would I be in trouble if He did!!!
Got a card a Christian supply that says Sorrow looks back worry looks around Faith looks UP!!! Philippians 4:6-7 "Don't worry about anything; instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all He has done. If you do this you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand"
James 1:12 "Blessed is the man who preserves under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him"
Another Card from Christian supply: Believe Hope Trust Matthew 19:26 "With man this is impossible but with God all things are possible"
It isn't about me its about what God has: Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future"
When Jesus is all we have, we realize He is all we need: 2 Timothy 4:16-17 "At my first defense, no one came to my support, but everyone deserted me. May it not be held against them. But the Lord stood at my side and gave me strength..."